it's a boy!

last friday at my awesome new dr.'s appointment y and i got to see our little peanut. dr. dwight asked, "do you guys want to know what it is?" and we both, or maybe it was just me, practically yelled, "yes! we HAVE to know!" after rolling the jellied apparatus around on my belly for a few seconds he clicked something on the keyboard to freeze the frame and showed us that IT'S A BOY!!!!!

i teared up a little because it makes it all so real now. i'm so happy! our little guy is apparently very active in the womb. he was rolling all around, doing somersaults and moving his little arms. i keep waiting to feel the "flutters" in my belly but so far i'm just feeling stretching and minor discomfort.

as soon as i found out i was pregnant a few months ago i tried picturing my baby. the image that always comes to me is a tiny little boy in a black onesie. dont' get me wrong, i adore baby girls but i could never picture my having one. i don't know why. that first week of knowing i was pregnant was so electrically charged, i was so weirded out and excited. it calmed me to know that i would have a little boy at the end of it. i told y that it was a boy and he said, "it's 50/50." of course that's true but i just KNEW.

it's a comfort to be right about this, i don't have to switch gears in my mind about the child i'm carrying. i knew who was in there from the first minutes.

*ultrasound pictures to come