day 7

here's how strong my resolve is: today at euro pane in pasadena, i passed up a chocolate muffin with a raspberry compote core, an array of some of the best macarons available in los angeles,  a pear tart and two cookies as big as my face.  it wasn't all deprivation and diet-y sadness though.  my lunch was a pretty large baguette sandwich of fresh mozzarella, tomatoes, basil and pesto.  it was a decent sandwich but i'm not going to lie, it was no "my vegan trip through india." still, i didn't feel i was depriving myself, and i really did enjoy the sandwich.

 the pastries mentioned above were not just things i looked at longingly in the case, no, these were in fact purchased by two of my dining partners and placed on the communal table to grab without judgement.
the old me would've gone for half the chocolate muffin, a macaron, one whole cookie and a few nibbles of pear tart.  i would've sampled everything and after i would've told myself that it was a special day and that this doesn't happen all the time yadda yadda yadda.  so many justifications and food lies would have been playing themselves out in my head.  the pleasure would soon be forgotten but the mental flogging would've endured.  i feel so free of all that food neurosis.  it's enormously pleasant to be happy with my self control at the end of the day.

tomorrow is my first day of week 2.  i'm so proud of myself for not just sticking to a plan but for my attitude.  i feel like maybe i have to go through this time of limiting my choices in order to gain perspective on what i eat and how much i actually need versus how much i feel i need.

i'm getting on the scale tomorrow and i'll also try on a pair of pants that were snug on me on day one.  i wonder if i should begin graphing my losses over the next few weeks.