today i walked a bit but not the normal across-downtown stroll. i took pre to ralphs for a few things. after that we went to the grove where i bought him some adorable pants. nothing for me yet. we went into jcrew and i got tempted to try a few things on but then i remembered what my body looks like right now and i decided not to. i keep forgetting i'm no longer a size 2. i like my body right now, it's just different from how i'm used to it. my belly and but are big and soft. i have large, squishy hips. i think it's all part of being a new mom and that it is ok. i just feel like i want to be ME again as well as a mom.
pre gets more personality every day. it isn't like he one day stopped being a tiny crying or not crying infant. it's more like a slow awakening. i wonder who he'll be in a year?
last night i had worries about the diet. i felt like my diet was compromising lactation. my breasts normally get a little bigger and firmer in the night but last night they were sad, saggy boobs. i felt like i might have to supplement his diet with stored breastmilk in the freezer but then i worried that my milk production would stay low and that his needs would increase. i ate a little more today and he nursed a little longer than usual so we're back on track.
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