4th day of K

what i think is funny about my starting a crash diet is that i just read a book with a strong message regarding the uselessness of crash diets.  why do i get the wrong message from cautionary tales?  it's like when i watched Super Size Me and it made me really hungry for McDonalds.  most people were probably totally disgusted and turned off by the thought of all that processed deliciousness after being beaten over the head with the nutritional facts.  i was grossed out to a point but c'mon; the pillow puff bun, the meltedy american cheeze, the crispy fish in the fish filet, yum!

my current favorite book, Born Round by Frank Bruni, has made me decide not be fat anymore.  what an amazing piece of nonfiction.  yes, he did a lot of ridiculous diets along the lines of the special k diet, and yes he gained it all back over and over but hear me out: it's going to be different for me.  Bruni finds ultimate success in a brilliant combination of exercise, small portions and variety.  i know!  it's so rational it's almost crazy.  i get it that you have to do something incredibly close to that to achieve a good relationship with food and self-image.  but here's the thing.  it's going to take all freakin' year for me to lose 15 pounds with that utopian approach to food and exercise.  time is of the essence.  my kid is almost 2 years old and i still have baby weight.  i really need to lose this extra mass before his birthday.  my plan is to let the special k diet do the heavy lifting and then i'll coast into victory with the more responsible weight watchers diet.  once i'm at my weight goal i'll go on "maintenance" with weight watchers, which is like Bruni's thing only with points.

the k went well today.  another milk chocolate protein shake for breakfast, then california rolls for lunch.  dinner was the cereal and an orange.  snacking happened between breakfast and lunch but it was a lovely little apple.  am i hungry?  right now yes, but i've been fine during the day, i think this would be hell if my one meal was dinner like the plan suggests.